- Her Truth -

Christmas is just around the corner . Another year has passed me by , another year that I might not remember fondly of if ever comes a day where I have to recall such a year as 2018 . I have learned so much this year . I have so much to say , yet I find it very difficult to write everything down now since I've learned to slowly let go of things that were holding me back . I'm no longer sentimental towards the people who've gone from my life , and I'm no longer a vulnerable slave to the past that had wrenched me mercilessly and broke me . How should I put 2018 in words ? It feels like as time goes by , and as I slowly grow from everything that I've experienced , I gradually lose grip of my passion for writing . Isn't it ironic ? That my best pieces of art , be it writing , painting or even composing , often come in my most depressed of times . Now that I'm lighthearted as a chirping bird , and am slowly walking out from the trauma that ha...

Let's do a little throwback of my favourite,  shall we ? This is Come thou fount of every blessing// If You Could Hie to Kolob by ElenyiMusic . I was really fond of this song during May and June , when I was facing immense stress from various different incidents in life . This song had touched and comforted me from the bottom of my heart . Such songs are undoubtedly a blessing . A gorgeous blessing in a form of angelic voices . Listening to it now , it still brings me back to those times where I was hopeless and vulnerable . Oh how this song had gave me strength and hope to move forward in tough times , when I couldn't even bring myself to be strong . To reminisce 2018 , oh how far I've came . How much I've grown in a mere span of a year . I do wish I could write a reflective blog about 2018 in general around the end of December , fingers cross that I'll be mentally stable enough and there's sufficient time for me to write one . I guess November just slipped ...

Here's a song by Dua Lipa that I adore this week . ' Homesick ' :: Greetings . I do realize that I have been writing significantly less about my life recently compared to previous months . Well to tell the truth , I have not much story of that significant to tell and for emotion wise , not much to update on . Everything has not been smooth sailing , of course . It's real life we're talking about .  But there's not much of a sweep of wind in my life right now , plain but steady , which I'm terribly grateful . I went to Japan and Taiwan a month back .  It was ....... an experience of a kind . This trip was a lot different than the previous ones as I was mostly left alone by my parents ( left astray I would say ) as they believe that I'm old enough to go about places and entertain myself . ( which I had tremendous fun in doing so ) . It's a rather plain trip in Japan , I stayed at my grandparent's place and my parents stayed at a hotel so tha...

I'm back . You guys know the drill . So here it is , the song I have been listening to way too much these few days . The beginning part is my absolute favorite : " What's the trick ? I wish I knew . I'm so done with thinking through all the things I could've been . And I know you wonder too. All it takes is that one look and I'll fall right back to you . You cross the line and it's time to say F you . What's the point of saying that ? When you know how I'll react . You think you can just take it back but shit just don't work like that . You're the drug that I'm addicted to and I want you so bad . Guess I'm stuck with you and that's that . "  This entry will be a short one , a very short one indeed . I just dropped by to jot down how contented I feel right now . Though not completely settled down like I wish to but still , I'm tremendously grateful for how I feel now as compared to how I was a few months b...

" I've been walking through a world gone blind , can't stop thinking of your diamond mind . Careful creatures made friends with time . He left her lonely with a diamond mind , and those ocean eyes . " - Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish  How would you interpret these lyrics ? I'm fascinated as to what lyrics mean to each individual . Regardless of the actual meanings and stories set by the composers and singers themselves . I guess each and every one of us tend to whip up our own batch of stories that goes along with songs we listen to throughout our life time . These stories may be of memories , mixture of delicate personal emotions or even invaluable life lessons and ecetera . All of these intertwined , opens up a path of untold stories and indecipherable meanings behind each songs , depending on each individual . Ain't it unique and somewhat .....  ludicrous ? To think of it like this ? The song that we listen to now , how we comprehend it , may not be it for ...

It's such a difficult decision for me to pick out a song that I really love for this entry as I'm really into a couple of songs these few weeks . This week I'm immensely touched by You Are The Reason by Calum Scott   . I first heard this song on the radio while I was driving , it sent chills down my spine . I couldn't really pin point how I felt back then , a confusing rush of nostalgia , hurt but ironically , a hint of comfort . So here it is : - Awakening of Senses  I could feel again . Feel again . Such a huge step in such a short amount of time . It might sound bizarre to any sane being that I'm applauding myself for the simple mechanism that should be equipped within a human being . But as I've mentioned in earlier entries , specifically , Emotional Numbness from 13th July 2018   . I've gone through a phase where I could nearly feel nothing . I guess I was so wounded up in my own hurt feelings that I was entirely numb wh...

" You're a world away , somewhere in the crowd ,  in a foreign place ,  are you happy now ? "  - Happy Now by Zedd , Elley Duhe  This part of the whole song hits me the most . Right in the heart . Why is it so ? You're so far away from me , not only in the form of physical distance , but the distance of our hearts . " You were . "  Yes , were .  I guess I'm pretty much the type of person who would replay a song so much that it annoys the hell out of others . To be specific , I've been hooked on to this song for quite a while now . It's like a daily routine to listen to this song while I'm on my way to work . 10th August 2018 ( Friday )  After a couple of months of you repetitively asking me if I was free , that you wanted to see me , and me continuously refusing to see you . I finally felt maybe it was best for us to just sort things out once and for all . It's been half a year since our separation and I had pretty ...