- Awakening - 23rd August 2018 -

It's such a difficult decision for me to pick out a song that I really love for this entry as I'm really into a couple of songs these few weeks .
This week I'm immensely touched by You Are The Reason by Calum Scott  .
I first heard this song on the radio while I was driving ,
it sent chills down my spine .
I couldn't really pin point how I felt back then ,
a confusing rush of nostalgia , hurt but ironically ,
a hint of comfort .
So here it is : -

Awakening of Senses 

I could feel again .

Feel again .

Such a huge step in such a short amount of time .

It might sound bizarre to any sane being that I'm applauding myself for the simple mechanism that should be equipped within a human being .

But as I've mentioned in earlier entries ,

specifically ,

Emotional Numbness from 13th July 2018  .

I've gone through a phase where I could nearly feel nothing .

I guess I was so wounded up in my own hurt feelings that I was entirely numb when it came to any ordinary emotions that I should be feeling .

Explanations and summaries aside ,

I'm absolutely proud of myself to be able to overcome such a phase ,

where I'm able to genuinely feel happy again .

Though I may not be able to fully recover ,

or to be precise ,

overcome my own negative state of mindset ,

I'll try my very best to cope with all that may come my way .

Come what may ,

break downs or panic attacks ,

I shall try to surpass them all .

Now the question renders down to exactly what lead me to such a victorious growth ?

What on earth ,

after all these times ,

gave me the courage to triumph over my destructively negative self that had eaten my spirit this whole time ?

As always ,

I'm a secretive person .

The exact reason I shall never disclose before there is any concrete outcome .

So as usual ,

I'll leave everything to the blossoming imaginations of yours .

Best of luck .

Till next time .

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With the raise of my foot ,

with every step I take ,

it is a milestone .

Small it may be ,

it is a progress in itself .

I'm proud .

I'm oh so proud .

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