- Contentment - 7th September 2018 -

I'm back .
You guys know the drill .
So here it is ,
the song I have been listening to way too much these few days .
The beginning part is my absolute favorite :

" What's the trick ? I wish I knew .
I'm so done with thinking through all the things I could've been .
And I know you wonder too.
All it takes is that one look and I'll fall right back to you .
You cross the line and it's time to say F you .

What's the point of saying that ?
When you know how I'll react .
You think you can just take it back but shit just don't work like that .
You're the drug that I'm addicted to and I want you so bad .
Guess I'm stuck with you and that's that . " 

This entry will be a short one ,
a very short one indeed .
I just dropped by to jot down how contented I feel right now .
Though not completely settled down like I wish to but still ,
I'm tremendously grateful for how I feel now as compared to how I was a few months back .
I learned that I simply could not make those who're not willing to stay in my life to stay by me ,
by force or by other means .
It's not within my range of control and that I have to let go . 
Even if I attempt to ,
it'll only end up miserably .
I've learned to be grateful to those who are willing to stay ,
who actually make an effort to make me feel that our connections are special .
Thank you to all those who stayed and stood by me despite the mess I was and still is .
I couldn't express the feeling of gratitude I feel inside . 

To those who stayed ,
thank you for loving me for who I am .
Thank you .