- Her Truth -

I miss him . That's the first thing that comes up to my mind every morning and the last thing that'll be in my mind till i fall asleep every night . May 25th 2012 to February 25th 2013 was the one of those best memories i could have in my life . Of course he was ignorant , lame and all for sometimes . We never really went on any dates . He never pay for any bills . He never remembered anything about our anniversaries . He never gave me any little gifts . But those were'nt the things i wanted . All i wanted from him was his company . To feel his love . To feel that someone actually cares about me . I love his embrace , his kiss and how he smiles . I really loved how he sang when we first called each other . I know i'll never get to hear his singing ever again even if i want to . I do love him . With my whole heart and i wanted to take care of him , love him like how he deserves to be loved . But i guess... i'm just not so forgiving as i though i am...

It's already JUNE. hello, JUNE. byebye, May. I have a lot to say.  Where should i start from.... I dunno. Recently, I feel LONELY again. Friends, yeah sure i have lotsa them. But the truth is , who knows which one of them will be there for you when you get in troubles. I still don't understand what is called TRUE FRIENDSHIP. I almost forgot how loneliness felt , these few months . I was really happy. Even though i did'nt actually get along with the same friends everytime. But things went perfect. I though i could stay like this forever... Until i realise ... Hey. Don't you know that everyone has their own friends and gangs ? Don't you feel ashame ? Your apearance is just going to annoye them. You're always gonna be the one who gets left behind. Don't you see that everyone  is happy being at the place where they belong ? You're always the unnecessary one who is always not being welcome. Why can't  you face the reality ? No one wants you here. No wa...

Yesterday was teachers' day :) Yepeeeeeee  ♥ Had tons of fun , decorating class *Yayy I'm the leader :) Group members ,thanks for your cooperations. Without you guys , i really can't make it. Thanks guys !* preparing foods *which it looked less but there were actually lots of leftovers *, and stacking drinks * With Lee Shieh Shen . Both of us hide all the ice lemon tea so we could have it to ourselves #EvilGrin* FRESH FRUIT TEA. i think i won't wanna see or drink this for a couple of weeks -.- I almost drank all of the flavours when wondering around the entire school block with Nicole :3 Both of us were cheeky enough to get those tea from others.  Even Form 1 strangers ! *We just took a sip of the Tea and ran off*  And there were some fun entertainment shows in our class :3 I guess it was a big success. The teachers loved it. @MayWei @ChuenHui @PeiChing @KarMin you guys did totally well ! Heard my freakish screech ? Yeah that's my voice ! I was supporting y...

I cant breathe. I cant breathe. Went to the Doc today and got a very strange result. Nothing's wrong with me. The doc said I'm just over stress . WTF. OVERSTRESS are you fuckin sure ? Well if you say I'm overstress last year I might not be so shock but... I'm doing fine now. They asked me : " Having stress with your studies *kinda.But i lied.i said no,honestly i'll be dead if i said yes.*?" " Having problem with friends *well hell yea but not as much as i did last year.I'm used to it now.*" " Anything you feel sad about lately?*NO.*" I just cant breathe. Would'nt they be checking my lungs....or heart or something. How is this even related to stress anyway ? Hmm....i don't know. And they gave me sleeping pills for one week. Okay now i have to drink more useless pills. I can sleep fine without pills. Drinking pills makes me feel awful. And the price was really expensive, day light robbery . Just 6 pills and t...

If i could choose the way of my future, I would like my life without you. You did nothing wrong, it's just me . You are a good friend, i trust you more than I trust anybody else, I share all my secrets with you. I seek for your avice when I'm in trouble. You made me smile when I’m sad. You made me cool down whenever I'm mad. But I think I should stop being too close to you (you appear everywhere i go -,- it's not all my fault!) I tried to avoid you but it's no use. Okay, now you're thinking I'm a crazy stalker . whatever. Maybe not,you're too kind to think that way. I need to pull myself away fom you. I'm serious. I dont wanna rely on anyone,anymore. I dont wanna be the burden of yours. Remember.I do care for you.I really do. You're the most caring best friend I ever had in my entire life. Maybe you dont think the same way as i do,but still..... Thank you.For always being there for me. And good-bye.Everything will change.Not...

Gone too far again this time# I should'nt had told anyone my secrets. And now i got a bad feeling that im gonna be betrayed AGAIN. Oh well, the same thing goes all over again. Have to get used to this situation -,- and if there's next time, I'll get my mouth taped with duct tape. DUCT TAPE is not enough, I'm gonna use stapler ! That should make me STFU. I found out that i believe everyone too easily. Until I realise this, maybe it's too late. No one is worth to believe. I keep reminding myself since last year, keep my problems to myself, no one cares about how your life is, no matter how suck your life is now. No one will even try to understand your emotions, everyone is busy with their own life. So why go and disturb them? But it's hard. I keep falling to those who looks kind, but i don't know them at all. I don't know who the person is or how is that person. They look kind and friendly, but i fear that they'll do the sa...

2012's 1st Saturday :) And as U see, My FORM 2 LIFE had just begun two or three days ago c: Glad i met new friends, May Wei,(met you in krs but we sit together in class !! :D ) Tian Jun ( is this how you spell your name ? haha,sorry ..) Chii Ming,( Mr higher grade than Gorilla !!) and the two behind me ( haha -,- not really,they're terrible two as i think they are ) WeLL,the 1st week was good :) the back part of the class where all of us sit , and in the whole class, i think we laughed the most, we always did, we laughed for silly things, sometimes for even no reason !! FUN !! I'm starting to get used to this class but i dun really know the rest of the other people in class x_x Nothing is gonna change unless i take the 1st move, i keep reminding my self but i totally dont have the guts to do so :( but i know someday i would take my chance, just U, wait for me :D