Hi June .

It's already JUNE.

hello,

JUNE.

byebye,

May.

I have a lot to say. 

Where should i start from.... I dunno.

Recently,

I feel LONELY again.

Friends, yeah sure i have lotsa them.

But the truth is ,

who knows which one of them will be there for you when you get in troubles.

I still don't understand what is called TRUE FRIENDSHIP.

I almost forgot how loneliness felt ,

these few months .

I was really happy.

Even though i did'nt actually get along with the same friends everytime.

But things went perfect.

I though i could stay like this forever...
Until i realise ...

Hey.

Don't you know that everyone has their own friends and gangs ?
Don't you feel ashame ?

Your apearance is just going to annoye them.

You're always gonna be the one who gets left behind.

Don't you see that everyone  is happy being at the place where they belong ?
You're always the unnecessary one who is always not being welcome.

Why can't  you face the reality ?

No one wants you here.

No wants you anywhere.

Don't you get it , girl ?
WAKE UP.
..........
Where do i belong ?

A few weeks ago , 

when my class moved to 1A4 , *for some reason which i don't know -,-  *
i sat alone near the door.
Staring at 1A5,
the place which i used to sit.
the place where me and the other girls used to have chit chats.
the place where it used to be so .... familiar , warm and welcoming .

But it's not the same.
Nothing is the same now.

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:( 

I guess I just can't be stronge enough to forget the pain.

Forgive and Forget may sound easy ,

but honestly,

it's not.
I believed them.

I told them everything.
I done everything they wanted me to do.

I obey every single thing they told me to.

But ... is that FRIENDSHIP ?
..........
I was stupid enough to believe ,

that was called FRIENDSHIP.

And when i found out I'm nothing to them....

that's when the nightmares started.

6 months passed.

I should really forget those bad memories and take an effort to meet new friends.

REAL FRIENDS.

I don't like to go out because going out means meeting people.

I don't like meeting people because I'm shy and scared.
But i really need friends.

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Gonna keep reminding myself.
Ima STRONGE GIRL.
BIG GIRL.
MATURE GIRL.
:D 

Those are just a part of life :)
Forget and leave the sad part behind ,
learn from my previous mistakes.
Take along the happy memories and move on,
appreciate and live my life with a GREAT BIG SMILE :D