- Sorrows and Hopes - 17th February 2023 -

 Greetings and salutations. 

Let's get started with the usual, shall we? 

This song is one of my favourites lately.

This particular part of the lyrics had goosebumps plastered all over my body when I first listened to it. 

【谁让，时间是让人猝不及防的东西。

晴时有风，阴时有雨。

争不过朝夕，又念着往昔，偷走了青丝却留住一个你。

岁月是一场有去无回的旅行，

好的坏的都是风景。】

And as per usual, this is my best attempt with the translation of the part of the lyric I love so much (I apologize in advance if I have butchered any part of this beautiful song):

[We're always caught up in the endless flow of time. 

In the midst of the journey of life, there will inevitably be times of stormy weather.

We will never be able to defy the racing of time, yet we tend to mourn and cling to the past that is long gone. 

Our youth will only pass us by and what will be left is the present.

We hold a one-way ticket in life and there shall be no return.

Every moment, despite good or bad, shall all be fond memories as time washes over us.]

How beautiful. 

I am always amazed by how these talented songwriters are capable of weaving such simple concepts in life into something so heartwarming.

Maybe this is the magic that they hold, to touch lives with the music that they create. 

Going into the main reason why I chose to write today. 

How ironic it is, 

that what I once thought would wrench my heart feels as light a feather. 

The thought of being replaced.

The thought of losing someone I hold so dearly to my heart to someone else.

Truth be told, 

these stories have not hurt me the way I thought they would. 

Astonishingly, 

the only thing I managed to feel was just a sting as light as an ant's bite in the heart and nothing more. 

What struck me was how upset and distraught I was with knowing how much the individual has deteriorated in recent days. [To avoid confusion, hereinafter, I will be referring to this individual as 'they/them' or simply just 'this/ this said individual'. This has nothing to do with gender or any matters relating to sexual preferences. Please kindly take note.]

Despite the turmoils we've gotten ourselves into, 

I could never bring myself to hold hatred or grudges towards this said individual. 

Though we parted ways and said our goodbyes,

and despite my initial shock and depression, 

I still wish this said individual the best of luck in life and I hope that they will be able to prosper into their full potential as I firmly believe they are capable of doing whatever they set their minds to.

2022 has taught me to be forgiving and to let go, 

of others, 

and of myself. 

But, to hear stories of how this individual repeatedly chose to harm me breaks my heart. 

Once is accidental.

But twice is intentional.

This was partly the reason why I chose to shut myself away from society or any news of this sort to protect myself, mentally. 

I choose to forgive and will stay forgiving until situations require me to take appropriate measures and actions for my own protection.

But till then, 

I earnestly pray that they will be able to find light in the dark tunnel they are venturing into.

I still believe behind these shields of displayed characters, 

is the kind heart that I once knew.

May you find peace and love amidst these troubled times. 

Though not in a religious sense (as I am not a religious person),

I pray for you.

I hope that only the best will come to you, if you so let it.

If only you try.

Failure is not something to be ashamed about,

but it should be something that should propel you to greatness.

I never want you to give up, in life,

 and in anything that you choose to do.

And most importantly, 

in yourself.

Please don't give up, 

my once dearest.

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May you find peace and love amidst these troubled times.

成年后我发觉，离别的体面不在于悔恨，更不在于遗忘。

而是在于能勇于原谅对方并且放过自己。

最体面的离别，是能坦然祝福对方未来幸福。

祝你，

幸福。

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