- Facing Fear - Reunite -
It seems like for the past two months I have been waiting for this day to come .
24th of June 2018 .
But of course ,
in this place ,
I wouldn't be disclosing exactly what is going on with my life as it correlates with matters regarding privacy of not only my own but of others .
It turns out that I've waited for something that may or may not come ,
which makes it that much more frustrating .
I went on a long bike ride like I always do a few hours ago ,
it was a pleasant ride indeed ,
where I had my earphones on ,
listening to musics I love ,
contemplating on a lot of stuff .
It felt as if my thoughts are running alongside the wheels of my bike .
Faster , faster and yes , faster .
I find it really pleasing to let my hair loose while i ride my bike ,
feeling the gentle breeze caressing my hair ,
it takes away everything .
My stress , my fear and sometimes ,
my sorrow .
Ah yes ,
before I run too far off topic ,
recently I've been into Sleeping At Last .
And I've been especially fond of his cover of Chasing Cars by the Snow Patrol .
24th of June 2018 .
But of course ,
in this place ,
I wouldn't be disclosing exactly what is going on with my life as it correlates with matters regarding privacy of not only my own but of others .
It turns out that I've waited for something that may or may not come ,
which makes it that much more frustrating .
I went on a long bike ride like I always do a few hours ago ,
it was a pleasant ride indeed ,
where I had my earphones on ,
listening to musics I love ,
contemplating on a lot of stuff .
It felt as if my thoughts are running alongside the wheels of my bike .
Faster , faster and yes , faster .
I find it really pleasing to let my hair loose while i ride my bike ,
feeling the gentle breeze caressing my hair ,
it takes away everything .
My stress , my fear and sometimes ,
my sorrow .
Ah yes ,
before I run too far off topic ,
recently I've been into Sleeping At Last .
And I've been especially fond of his cover of Chasing Cars by the Snow Patrol .
Getting back to the main point I chose to write another blog post today .
I realised ,
while I was cycling ,
that getting anxious over that particular day just won't do me any good .
One way or another ,
I'll still need to face the truth .
I'll still need to deal with reality .
What difference will it make if I spend the remaining time troubled by my own messy whirlwind of thoughts ?
Maybe ,
just maybe .
For better or for worst as the closure may be ,
I should just let it be .
If it ends this way ,
it might be a good sign .
I could finally let go and start anew .
I could finally leave my past behind me and welcome my future with open arms ,
without any hesitation ,
any other concerns .
But if with God's grace ,
though I dare not dream or hope for anything else rather my own peace of mind ,
if things goes right ,
as I always dreamed it would be ,
I would ever be so grateful .
But I've decided that I shall no longer dwell excessively on this particular matter .
Let's just say ,
I'll place my destiny in the hands of fate .
As they always say ,
" if it's meant to be , it'll be . "
Let our reunion be that of a merry one ,
I could only hope for the best to happen .
as I always dreamed it would be ,
I would ever be so grateful .
But I've decided that I shall no longer dwell excessively on this particular matter .
Let's just say ,
I'll place my destiny in the hands of fate .
As they always say ,
" if it's meant to be , it'll be . "
Let our reunion be that of a merry one ,
I could only hope for the best to happen .
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