Maybe it should have been this way ( 6th August 2016 )
I try to reminisce what time had offered me in this 8 months of time .
It did not felt long at all since I had not gotten myself in a proper school until as late as the end of March this year and college started but I promptly ended my stay in July .
Let me give you guys a quick update on what happened in the past few months ,
now here it goes .....
As I mentioned earlier in this post ,
I got into KDU college Penang on 28th of March 2016 .
Met a lot of people and of course being chatty as I am ,
I was quick in making new friends and I truly appreciate how sincere they were to me .
It was a matter of time that I immersed myself into my new circle of friends and we were very merry indeed .
We went out for lunch and dinner together ,
with occasional nonchalant jokes here and there .
Of course ,
there was the constant laughter .
Genuine ones .
I even went as far as staying out constantly at my friends' place since I was living alone in my hostel . As they say ,
the more the marrier , ay ?
But to be honest I had 2 groups of friends which I alternately hang around with .
Both I love dearly and are grateful for they were a big part of me during my time at KDU college .
But eventually, I decided the other group was more for me .
I am in no sense saying the first group was no good for me ,
they were .
Astonishingly ,
time eventually settled me with a group of friends where I truly felt free and happy being myself .
It was and It is as if I did not need to render myself to become who I am not and what I am not .
They're caring and ever more so loving towards me and our circle of friends .
Feeling at ease was always how I felt hanging around them .
No tense feelings ,
No rude inappropriate jokes ,
Genuine caring and heart-to-heart type of friendship were what they showed me .
I recently withdrew from my old college and is now studying at my own pace .
It sounded much more like my parents' wish for me but to be honest, maybe this was always what I wanted for myself from the first place .
From the girl who had no clue about what she'll go for after College to someone who now has a goal .
A more realistic goal .
It was a hustle with the withdrawing procedure and it cost a fortune too .
I felt lots of guilt but dad said it was completely okay since I'm young and I'm just in the middle of figuring out who I am and what I wanted for myself .
For people who are curious about me and what I did or what I'm going to go for .
Please do not be a nuisance by gossiping about me and my life .
I had to put that huge so I get my points straight .
Yes, I should already be getting over people who like a piece of gossip everywhere they are .
But seriously ?
WHY THE HELL DO YOU NEED TO KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT MY LIFE ? My life is not a timeline or a gossip magazine .
Please ,
just leave me and my life ALONE . I'll truly appreciate that .
I'll tell you if I feel like it ,
OR
if you are that IMPORTANT to me .
If you're not ?
Then why bother knowing so much about me ?
We're clearly not even that close .
Excluding those who are my close friends who really cares about me .
There's like a clear border line between being caring and being a busy body .
You ain't gonna gain no shit from knowing what I'm currently doing .
You guys seriously need to just you know ,
like ......
Mind your own business ?
Thank you very much ?
I will tell you if I feel that you are important to me .
If not ,
stay the fuck away from me you f*cking Mcfilthy .
' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'
It did not felt long at all since I had not gotten myself in a proper school until as late as the end of March this year and college started but I promptly ended my stay in July .
Let me give you guys a quick update on what happened in the past few months ,
now here it goes .....
As I mentioned earlier in this post ,
I got into KDU college Penang on 28th of March 2016 .
Met a lot of people and of course being chatty as I am ,
I was quick in making new friends and I truly appreciate how sincere they were to me .
It was a matter of time that I immersed myself into my new circle of friends and we were very merry indeed .
We went out for lunch and dinner together ,
with occasional nonchalant jokes here and there .
Of course ,
there was the constant laughter .
Genuine ones .
I even went as far as staying out constantly at my friends' place since I was living alone in my hostel . As they say ,
the more the marrier , ay ?
But to be honest I had 2 groups of friends which I alternately hang around with .
Both I love dearly and are grateful for they were a big part of me during my time at KDU college .
But eventually, I decided the other group was more for me .
I am in no sense saying the first group was no good for me ,
they were .
Astonishingly ,
time eventually settled me with a group of friends where I truly felt free and happy being myself .
It was and It is as if I did not need to render myself to become who I am not and what I am not .
They're caring and ever more so loving towards me and our circle of friends .
Feeling at ease was always how I felt hanging around them .
No tense feelings ,
No rude inappropriate jokes ,
Genuine caring and heart-to-heart type of friendship were what they showed me .
I recently withdrew from my old college and is now studying at my own pace .
It sounded much more like my parents' wish for me but to be honest, maybe this was always what I wanted for myself from the first place .
From the girl who had no clue about what she'll go for after College to someone who now has a goal .
A more realistic goal .
It was a hustle with the withdrawing procedure and it cost a fortune too .
I felt lots of guilt but dad said it was completely okay since I'm young and I'm just in the middle of figuring out who I am and what I wanted for myself .
For people who are curious about me and what I did or what I'm going to go for .
Please do not be a nuisance by gossiping about me and my life .
I had to put that huge so I get my points straight .
Yes, I should already be getting over people who like a piece of gossip everywhere they are .
But seriously ?
WHY THE HELL DO YOU NEED TO KNOW SO MUCH ABOUT MY LIFE ? My life is not a timeline or a gossip magazine .
Please ,
just leave me and my life ALONE . I'll truly appreciate that .
I'll tell you if I feel like it ,
OR
if you are that IMPORTANT to me .
If you're not ?
Then why bother knowing so much about me ?
We're clearly not even that close .
Excluding those who are my close friends who really cares about me .
There's like a clear border line between being caring and being a busy body .
You ain't gonna gain no shit from knowing what I'm currently doing .
You guys seriously need to just you know ,
like ......
Mind your own business ?
Thank you very much ?
I will tell you if I feel that you are important to me .
If not ,
stay the fuck away from me you f*cking Mcfilthy .
' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'
' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'' My business is my business unless you matter to me .'
And yes ,
I see the needs to repeat that 5 times in order for me to get my points screwed in your head .
Leave me the f*ck alone and move on .
It's just that easy .
I need my space and my tranquillity and I do not like to be the centre of your endless and pointless gossips , rants and bitching .
Phew ....
This post sure ends very vigourously .
I'm sorry there're graphical words flying everywhere .
Thanks for dropping by .
I think that's all .
Bye for now .
And yes ,
I see the needs to repeat that 5 times in order for me to get my points screwed in your head .
Leave me the f*ck alone and move on .
It's just that easy .
I need my space and my tranquillity and I do not like to be the centre of your endless and pointless gossips , rants and bitching .
Phew ....
This post sure ends very vigourously .
I'm sorry there're graphical words flying everywhere .
Thanks for dropping by .
I think that's all .
Bye for now .
Miss u 😕
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