4th August 2014
WOW .
That's the first thing that came up to my mind when i looked at the date .
It's already AUGUST for crying out loud .
How fast was that ?
I could still remember the first day of school .
Which , i did'nt really looked forward to .
And i was'nt really confident about socializing with my new classmates .
This is the first year i got myself into an A class .
Yeah i know , i know ,
it may seem like no big deal to you but it's my first time .....
so just give me the credit for the hard work i'd paid to get the result i wanted in PMR .
Though i still dislike the fact that i have to wake up early in the morning just to get myself ready for school .
But everything seems to be working just fine .
To be honest ,
I'm pretty relieved .
Everything had been going smooth so far that i can't help myself but to feel grateful .
This is the way i want my life to be .
PEACEFUL .
FREE OF DRAMA .
STRESS FREE .
I may be that emotional drama queen in the past ,
but not anymore .
I've learned to think everything from another perspective ,
out of the box .
And I really got my " SOCIAL NETWORK ADDICTION " out of my life .
It's not like i want to shut myself away from my friends , family and the outside world .
I just want to get myself together .
Get the hang of myself .
And here I am ,
FACEBOOK DEACTIVATED , INSTAGRAM , TWITTER DELETED .
And much much more .
But I'll still use them during holidays .
It would be fun to have some company using the social media but I would'nt want myself addicted to it .
CONCLUSION : IT'S ALL ABOUT SELF CONTROL .
My studies ( I'm still struggling but i know I'm on my way and I could still make it if i work extra hard )
My social life ( With few conflicts compared to the previous years . I've been doing pretty darn fine with my current classmates . )
My family ( I LOVE THEM . Got it ? My dad and mom , I really do love them and I've realized that I've learned to appreciate more for what they've done for me as i grow older . And as for my brother , I MISS HIM . I'll be praying for him every step along the way . I pray that his hard work shall pay off and he takes good care of himself . I still tear up sometimes whenever i think of him . But I know to love is to let go . I wish the best for him in his future . )
My love life ? ( Nothing much to mention . Just happy . That's more than i could share . * winky smile * )
It's like i finally found my goal .
My dream .
What I want to do .
What i want to be .
Where and when i want that particular dream to come true .
Is that a good sign ?
I want to stay diligent as how i was before PMR but unfortunately i just can't gather my lazy bones up to start fighting for my dreams .
I need motivation ....
I really need something to push me from behind .
But what would that motivation be ?
And how would that motivation give me the strength to fight on ?
I'm still searching for it .
But I know it will come soon .
I feel it .
It will .
Somehow .
Come to me .
Soon ...
There's not much time left for me .
I have to work hard .
WORK HARD .
That's the first thing that came up to my mind when i looked at the date .
It's already AUGUST for crying out loud .
How fast was that ?
I could still remember the first day of school .
Which , i did'nt really looked forward to .
And i was'nt really confident about socializing with my new classmates .
This is the first year i got myself into an A class .
Yeah i know , i know ,
it may seem like no big deal to you but it's my first time .....
so just give me the credit for the hard work i'd paid to get the result i wanted in PMR .
Though i still dislike the fact that i have to wake up early in the morning just to get myself ready for school .
But everything seems to be working just fine .
To be honest ,
I'm pretty relieved .
Everything had been going smooth so far that i can't help myself but to feel grateful .
This is the way i want my life to be .
PEACEFUL .
FREE OF DRAMA .
STRESS FREE .
I may be that emotional drama queen in the past ,
but not anymore .
I've learned to think everything from another perspective ,
out of the box .
And I really got my " SOCIAL NETWORK ADDICTION " out of my life .
It's not like i want to shut myself away from my friends , family and the outside world .
I just want to get myself together .
Get the hang of myself .
And here I am ,
FACEBOOK DEACTIVATED , INSTAGRAM , TWITTER DELETED .
And much much more .
But I'll still use them during holidays .
It would be fun to have some company using the social media but I would'nt want myself addicted to it .
CONCLUSION : IT'S ALL ABOUT SELF CONTROL .
My studies ( I'm still struggling but i know I'm on my way and I could still make it if i work extra hard )
My social life ( With few conflicts compared to the previous years . I've been doing pretty darn fine with my current classmates . )
My family ( I LOVE THEM . Got it ? My dad and mom , I really do love them and I've realized that I've learned to appreciate more for what they've done for me as i grow older . And as for my brother , I MISS HIM . I'll be praying for him every step along the way . I pray that his hard work shall pay off and he takes good care of himself . I still tear up sometimes whenever i think of him . But I know to love is to let go . I wish the best for him in his future . )
My love life ? ( Nothing much to mention . Just happy . That's more than i could share . * winky smile * )
It's like i finally found my goal .
My dream .
What I want to do .
What i want to be .
Where and when i want that particular dream to come true .
Is that a good sign ?
I want to stay diligent as how i was before PMR but unfortunately i just can't gather my lazy bones up to start fighting for my dreams .
I need motivation ....
I really need something to push me from behind .
But what would that motivation be ?
And how would that motivation give me the strength to fight on ?
I'm still searching for it .
But I know it will come soon .
I feel it .
It will .
Somehow .
Come to me .
Soon ...
There's not much time left for me .
I have to work hard .
WORK HARD .
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